complicated

life's full of contradictions.

often, you'll find yourself saying or doing things against what you actually want deep down in your heart.

i don't deny that i do, in fact most of the times i am like this. which i hate it. i think i should start to learn to care less about how others will feel and feel more for myself. learn to love myself, starting from cutting down intake of salt & sugar. but i don't think i will anyway, cos to love myself is to pamper myself & indulge in my loves. okay, maybe bit by bit. see! contradicting..

i think living is tiring. thinking is all i do everyday.

i hate planning.

i hate decision making.

i hate thinking.

i hate working.

i hate sparing a thought for others.

all in all, i hate life.

i think birthday celebration is kind of 'argh!'. shall think again tomorrow. really tired.

work's on tomorrow again. give me some concentration and focus.

love night, hate day.

goodnight.

p/s: not seeking attention. no sympathy allowed cos i need none! thanks.