is it worth the effort?

some stuff 肥仔 told me during my bday still left me thinking if things are worth my effort, especially some things happening now.

apparently one shows that effort is being made by taking the initiative. yes, i agree initiative is very important. but never forget to follow through, which is where i find the effort superficial.
it's just for the sake that, 'yes, i did make an effort to take the initiative.'

just like basketball, after making a pass for a fast break, you don't just stand there and see your team mate doing a nice lay-up, achieving a point but you back him/her up in case he/she did not make the basket.

guilt stroke me as i realised how little effort i had put it, thus i tried making up for it.
but, calls were unanswered nor returned. not even a sms to tell me why.
and till the next time when the other party has the mood, the call came.

initially was defending the party when 肥仔 was complaining and whining bout the negatives.
but slowly, i came to realise i'm sort of a replacement, or is it much worse, being taken for granted?

maybe time and distance are really the main factors maintaining a friendship.
till now, i'm much afraid of stepping into the society in less than half a year time to work.
at times, i wonder if all of us will still be in contact.
of course i hope so.
and anyway, i suppose our group from JSS are all very happy with how much yuwei has put us in his heart ya? haha, a true gesture really touches everyone of us.

and it's a countdown of 4 months to the end of attachment.
the motivation to kill is getting stronger. i think sheryl & i should be the worst attachment students they had met. to shout back at them leaving them speechless certainly works. watch out u bastard & bitch :)
without sheryl at attachment, i think i will die.
but thankfully i have her =D

加油肥仔!!!
survive till everything's over and i'll bring you to a good meal!
a little relaxation and you are going to be my bangala, painting my house okay!!! =P
loves!