lost of feelings

distance really DOES play a part in drifting people apart.indeed, with the advance of the technology, everyone's just a call away.n within a split second, an email can reach one another or an instant message on MSN.but, does he/she really do have you in the heart or is just purely entertaining you?

i used to tink our 1 year spent together had really bonded us close.and even if distance does matter, it's not going to drift us apart as long as we've had each other in our hearts.
despite the efforts i've tried putting in, it'd never ever seemed to be enuff.words of appreciation were carried on the mouth, however actions speak louder than words.i guess the last thing that came up to the minds of you all will be me, or might not even be.

things can never work with one party trying hard to keep things stable while the remaining parties kept no impression of her until she comes knocking on the door.it ALWAYS takes two hands to clap.i admit feeling disappointed and down at certain points of time but i never want to give this friendship up.but right now, i cant deny that i'm tired of putting in.not that i expect anything return except that my efforts are appreciated.fer now, i'm tired.i noe it's a pity but wat else can i do?

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i was thinking a few days back.i really do miss Class 5A , 2004.never had i met such a sporting and unite class, except fer some exceptionals.

i really appreciated people like winnie, vanessa, huiling, and of course my usual gang of besties - yiling, weiling, beechin, yinghua, yuwei, junjie, weepeng [back then]
they are really sporting people.

they'll chiong cab down straight after class when class ended at 1+pm, just to catch my 1pm match at clementi sports hall.they'll do so if they can afford the time and definitely show up during the semi finals & finals, be it west zone or national competition.they'll cheer till their voice go hoarse the next day.they touched me to bits but i really din noe how to express out how i really felt.my determination on court wouldn't have last any longer without them supporting me, mentally or physically or both.

in class, they'll help me keep a 'look-out' fer teachers who are eyeing to catch me fer slping in class.they'll cock up with excuses like i'm sick so that i can slp in class during lessons due to the tiredness from the trg on the previous day.

i can clearly rem how vanessa will run ard the whole level fer just trying to hlp me borrow a ten-year series so that Mr Low will not blast up my ears.i was full of gratitude but i dunno how must i express it to her.

other classmates will ALWAYS stick out their hands when i walk past them to leave the classroom with my leave form, wishing me best of luck fer my game.

i really missed those times.i love them all.the best class and classmates i've ever had.

i also miss my team mates.i remembered that there's once where jinghui physco-ed our whole team to cut our hair short.so cool~
and it's an everyday-thing fer us to change the time on the leave form just to leave early.
we make lots of noises on the bus to clementi, we went thru hell trgs, we quarrel, we bicker and all during trgs.but we never kept it in hearts.i miss everyone.

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when i was in sec 5 i cant wait to enter poly.but now when i'm in poly, i just hope i hadn't graduated from secondary sch.i seriously do miss everyone. =(