after so much...

realised i haven been blogging?haha..i tot it's time i change my blog's name..but haven tot of 1..n had been quite down n bz recently..tiring weeks..

so much so had happened within these few weeks..things changed overnite..

things which i dun expect to happened, happened.things i tot will go well, failed to go smoothly.im traumatised by the fact tat............nahs..dun wanna sae it out here.tink it'll affect juz too mani parties.im sinking deep into depression...

i tink, i worried, i tried, i cried in sch n to slp.anithing n everithing.n worst still, im doing smthn which made i myself, felt disgusted.fer those hu noes, keep mum bt it alrite.it's like, i let u ppl noe coz i tot u ppl will understand wat am i going thru now, n how much is it fer mi to take.thanks ppl.esp ben wong.

i realli gotta thank a lot of ppl.

1st of all, of course ben wong!despite his own probs he gotta lend mi a listening ear.thou he told mi it's best he dun do anithing(yes i seriously agree) but he went thru the most(something la..shhshh) with mi.thanks!

thanks yupei, weilin, mindy n kitty.u babes r there fer mi when i fell the hardest!thanks.n esp the hlp in sch work.lurve u ppl.

thanks yinghua, tangjie, yuwei fer trying to hard to cheer mi up tat day.n yuwei n yinghua, hu offered to accompany mi n called mi to ask if im alrite.

thanks maybelline fer shopping the whole nite with mi fer smthn.

thanks weiling fer all the care n concern.i'll most prob b meeting u tml ya?i hope so!i need u =X

thanks yiling fer listening to my story.haha.u r alwaes there fer mi.the fren hu nv leaves.frens in ("v")

thanks seymin fer accompanying mi to tok till ur last bus =P

thanks jason(thou not super shou ah..lol) hu tried toking sense to mi bt'ahem'

n of course timon(thou he wun get to read this) fer being the 'middle-man' n got so caught in btween.

thanks everi so n so..i hope i nv realli miss ani1 out ar?haha.thanks everi1..thanks so much.

i appreciated all the care n concern, n i noe it's onli when i noe how to lurve myself den will i get lurved.im disgusted by wat i had done.i cant resist, i cant hold back.i despised myself as much as some of u do.i oso wan to get back to my original self.but it's just too hard.i tried, but it ain't ez.u ppl will noe if u were mi.wells, cant understand how things can actually turn out this way after so much we'd went thru.haha.wat a joke god played on mi.

hope time REALLY heals all wounds.we'll take some time to cool off bah n shall c bt it again.as fer now, i hate myself.haha.thanks ppl fer lurving mi.i still hate myself.tink those hu noe wat's going on noe y.it's not tat i wanted to, i juz cant take it without releasing some '....'(excuses if u gotta sae it) i can sense the disappointment in quite a lot of ppl.sorry ppl.i noe u ppl meant well by asking mi not to, but it's like it's hard fer mi to..i dun wan to, but my soul's giving in.i finally allow to let it get over mi =X gif mi some time ppl.i promise i'll get away frm it.it's a matter of time.

lastly, still gotta thanks ben wong alot.seriously alot.haha.listen to mi n stop doing things which u shldn't k?rem wat i've said.take care huh.ani probs, a call n i'll b there..haha.i'll accompany u to do wat u accompanied mi to!rem, a true fren will accompany u to do wat u wan n not stop nor probe much into it if he/she noes u r down. =P thanks!