reflect.

was reading thru reuben's blog.felt quite a bit of useless when i'm not of ani hlp when u c some1 close to u tat sad.wells, cheer up my fren!thou u might not say, i can feel.i noe it's alwaes easy fer u to say sumthing to others den to do it urself.but no worries, i'll b right here nagging at u! =)

i read bt how he was reflecting bt his past, which made mi came to realise how much i've actually gone thru these yrs.from a tom-boy to (still trying to b) lady-like, haha, how furni.i saw quite a few pri sch classmates hu actually cant recognise mi when i can actually rem them.how sad.

rem the times in pri sch.a vice-head prefect whom everi1 hated fer asking all prefects to put on their ties or not i'll 'bao toh' (tell on) them, nv giving chances to late comers but being late myself without name being taken n all.haha.tat's how much privilages n hatred a vice-head prefect gets.

i've actually regretted fer not studying hard during my pri sch yrs.i do all sorts of nonsense.bluffing my mama tat im doing projects, having extra lessons, CCAs n watever shit, but was actually hanging out with my clique to do nonsensical stuff n leaning to play bball, one thing tat i've nv regretted till now.

till now, i can rem clearly how grief-striken i was when i got my PSLE results, with an aggregate of 180 which deprived mi from getting into the Express Stream.comparisons of results among my bros n i were made n i was criminally humilated by my 'Aunts' (who were TAT GREAT fer having SMART CHILDREN) fer im the 1st to get into a Normal Acadamic stream.i was extremely devastated n tat was when i swore tat i'll make a mark fer myself!so wat if im in a N.A stream?

apart from studies, i'm faithfully devoted to my CCA, basketball, as well.due to the intensive trgs sessions which were carried out thrice a week after sch curricular time, i couldn't hlp but fall asleep in class the next very day.soon, tons of overdue n undone homework piled up.drop in grades was obviously evident.last min work were done to ensure tat i can make thru the final year exams with border line grades.luck had alwaes played an important part during tat period of time.

proud to say, i've been award busary fer Sec 1 & 2, $300 Scholarship fer Sec3 and $500 Scholarship fer Sec 4 & 5, n even topping 'N' levels with a 4 pointer.im sure my parents felt proud of mi, but they kept it to themselves.however, i noe there's alwaes some jealousy arse holes who looked down upon mi, fer im a N.A student.

i din care much.release of 'O' levels results proved my capabilities acadamically even with a heavy role tat i've took upon in my CCA.at the very least, i've fer once made my parents proud of mi.

life isn't juz bt studying.the people ard mi affects mi a great leap.im grateful fer those hu crossed my path in my life.in fact, they made mi hu i am today!fer everitime i got hurt, i became stronger.i fell, but i picked up myself together with the experiences earned.i used to b a revengeful person.however, i realised i cant live on my life with all the hatred.i learnt to forgive n forget.im sure it's tough but sense of satisfactory filled mi when i managed to take the 1st step.nthn is impossible till u try.true enuff.

i've got myself a number of gd frens, most i nv tot we will become 1.i tink i tok bt this 'her' b4.bt how we used to bicker, oppose, backstab n watever.but guess wat?we cant b ani better now!yes, forgive n forget.i belive everi1 will undergo this stage of life.if u cant forgive n forget, u cant move on.so, wake up =)

and 1 more, be urself!i alwaes belive in being direct n frank (ppl like yiling, mindy n reuben noe lar!), however sometimes white lies save the day.haha.n also, treat others u wan them to treat u.there's 1 thing i've hated myself fer fer the previous yrs of my life.that is, im veri stingy on money.i'm veri 'gei gao'.im quite sure it's due to my thirfty-ness.but im trying to take it more easy on money alreadi, fer money dun makes it all. =)

as fer BGR, i noe there's alwaes sum1's r/s which has gone more 'hay-wired' as mine does.as sweet as it may b, arguements n disagreements btween 2 parties r unavoidable, needless to say the endless flow of tears thru out the nite when it happens, leaving 1 with red, swollen eyes to sch the next mrng.wells, no1 is perfect.so, appreciate his/her beauty n lurve he/her fer hu he/she is fer everi1 is unique.

once a r/s starts to fail, let go.fer it may bring u unforseen happiness ahead which u nv noe.fer the 1 u lurve to b happy is to let go of him/her if the lurve's no longer there.easier said den done, but it's true.

wells, i dunno realli noe y im blogging all these out.it just crossed my mind.aniwaes, i just wanna some comments on mi.do leave mi a mail, a tag or watever.it's time fer self reflection.

dear frens, i noe i've not done enuff as a fren at times.i tend to forget, neglect n stuff.im truely sorry.watever might happen, i still care.if ani1 of u should need mi, im just a call away.i miss all.thanks to those hu r alwaes there fer mi.i dun tink i needa name out rite?haha.so obvious alreadi!bleahs.

wells, i needa turn in soon as im working tml.heh.nites.

esp to Reuben Kim!!cheer up lar!see, i dedicated my 1st n last part of my entry to u.by honoured, will u?haha.stop brooding on the past, move on.u r not as bad as u've tot urself as.trust mi kies?take cares dude! [bathe faster lar]