They r the onli ppl hu din turn their backs on mi when a need a shoulder to lean on badly..they r there..consoling mi..encouraging mi..lending mi their shoulder n all!i simply lurve them to the core!alrites..to homie gals ( hazel , mindy , weilin ,yupei) wells..im truly sry..i din mean to not tell u gurls wat had actually happened..i mean..im not gd at expressing myself..i dunno y..im sry..but I really lurve u gurls!i swear! =)
Yeap..they were the ones..cheering mi up during my lunch break which my mood was totally OFF!ok..i din wan tat to happen too..but ya lars..i tink u gurls can guess as much wat had happened..i prefer to bottle it up inside mi den to make u gurls suffer with mi..heh..im too emotional when things really do happen…however..during tutorial..when I got back my tutorial..i cant hold back any drop of tear anymore!it juz came rolling down my cheecks as much as I wanted to hold it back!yes..u got it rite..i failed again..y?i dunno y..i wish I noe..ya..laugh all u wan..evil asses!i cant b bothered with wats going on in claz..ppl going ard..hey.how much u got..huh..i onli got a C+..fuck ur mother asses u fucking bastards n bitches!so wat if u've got a C+..yes..n so wat if i've got a F?!!!huh..u tell mi lars!u tink I even bother bt ur fucking grades?BLA BLA BLA!!!!!!!FUCK OFF!!!!!aARGH!!watever it is..
i've tot it thru..if I were to repeat 2 modules next sem..i’m gonna quit..yes..i will..no pt throwing my money into the lecturer’s pocket n those big bundles of exam papers..am toking to jinhan on msn..i told him this lars..n he's like asking if I got into BMS coz I like it?yes..i do..i really do!i nv regret getting into this course except having a lecturer which teaches as thou there's no tml n having stupid module like Info tech 4 a IT idiot like mi n oso a teacher hu alwaes teaches with his eyes closed!wth!ok..apart frm tat..im glad to have met fun ppl frm my claz..the homie gals..n ppl frm IS..kitty..jinhan n ppl lars!yes..thanx jinhan ah!4 that onli sentence u typed!heh!thanx la!lol..
Tutorial ended in an hr..my eyes r red n swollen..i din wan ani1 to c my ugly face..i stood up n went out of claz..i juz dunno wat to sae to ppl hu came n show their care..yes..sweet homie gurls wrote notes to mi..gurls..i really appreciated wat all of u have done..yes..of course..upon seeing the notes..im super touched..i'm left speechless..with onli tears rolling down uncontrollably!yes..i lurve u all gurls!
Yes lar..laugh all u wan..i muz admit I really cnnt stop crying..n off I walked all the way with tears coming down to atrium to meet qin..saw yinghua n tangjie along the way..they do sensed smthn's wrong..but I dunno how to react..yes..soon after I got a call frm yiling..yes..i wanted to share everi single lil bits with her!i really do..but I cant..i dun wan to hold onto my phone n sobbing while toking..i noe I can get super emotional..n ya..i told her i'll tell her again..i'msorry yiling..i noe u care..im touched!i lurve ya!!thanx baby! =)
Wells..i went for a run with mindy n qin..yes..run run!!!!saw ah boon having soccer trg..yes..he's frm sports appeal..smiled n waved hi..ya..yes..i'm gd in acting happy..he's furni n frenly lars!yeap..proceeded to the track n ran..yes..run run run!!!if onli I cld run away frm all the probs surfacing..if onli if onli..i wan nthn but to run as far..as fast as I cld!!yes..i ran..with not onli mindy n qin..but oso xiaowei,mingli n carol..i ran 3.6km in all..not a lot..but yes..i really feel a lot better!i really do!thanx peeps!went to snack bar which is bside the pool to get a drink..damn..the ice milo taste damn horrible..n made mi have a tummy ache soon after 3 sips..alrites..i've learnt my lesson..ok..was toking to qin bt stuff here n there..she too..yes..we've both got lotsa probs..we noe it's alwaes..easier said den done!yes ..it is..am emotionally unstable while toking bt all..yes..tears again..i dunno y..i dun wan it..my eyes r getting tired..my contact lenses r making my eyes suffer..simply pain..den yes...saw darren..hu's in water polo lars..oso frm sports appeal..wells..managed to force a smile n waved to him..surprised tat he still rem mi..he looks cute lars..ok lar..played bball after tat..
Wells..trg tml..com on thurs..wish mi luck..i've already failed in studies n sum personal stuff..nv let mi fall in bball too..pls..im super down already!dun u tink u've made mi suffer enuff?i juz wan myself back..
Tok to dar on phone..dun wanna tok much..yes..i hope we r like b4..if onli I cld turn back n stop the time..if onli........
Was reading everi1's blog..came across jason which mention bt common test..yes…studi week's juz next week..juz like him..when Iim informed tat my sports appeal was successful..i swore tat i'll studi hard n bla bla bla..yes..i guess everi1 did..i consoled myself tat it mite b bcoz of my bz schedule tat sch work's being neglected..but how much blame can I put on it..stop tat stupid ass..u noe u r not cut out to b in BMS lars..so get ur ass out!aniwaes..i'll try to pia lars..i dun wan to let ani1 down..dun wanna waste the $1050.29..i'll study..yes..next week..i will..force mi pls!!
Alrites..it's a long blog already..aniwaes I sincerely thanks all my dear frens!yes..i got msgs frm yupei,weiling n yuwei too hu heard bt it n stuff..
*hazel*huiling*jinghui*khadijah*mindy*weilin*weiling*yiling*yinghua*yiqin*yupei*yuwei*
Thanks ppl..i lurve u all!u ppl r alwaes there..im glad to have u ppl..n im proud of myself to have u all!hehe..my eyes r still painful =(
i'll get over with my whatever shit tml!coz..tml's a better day!i lurve darling 4ever!wells..i really do!
*i missed him!tml's his bday 5thJul..he kills my troubles!*
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