Thursday, June 23, 2005

Everything's no longer the same...

things were nv as gd as we thought that they are..im hurt..am sad..am depressed..am upset..am worn out..am ALONE!

i din noe wat i did tat am treated this way..but i dun blame ani1..but how can i feel nothing at all?i felt like walking away n have a gd cry alone..i tot i can even pour all out to dar when i c him..i tot i have him to fall back on..

but i woke up frm all my tots when a msg came towards the end of my lecture which thereafter..i can go hm..he's not meeting mi..y?simply coz he's tired..y is he tired?coz of hanging out till i dunno wat damn late time he went hm..did i not remind?wat was the reply i get last nite?ya..u can say im disapponited..yes i admit..i am!but i felt even more hurt..more depressed..more ALONE!hu am i to u?am i still not understanding enough?is meeting 2 - 4 times a week alot?watever...
im tired..worn out..falling sick..stress..tiredness..n everithing i got frm studies n bball r building up..i dunno when i'll fall..wat keeps mi going?

YOU!

  • the thought of u made mi feel confident..

  • the encouragements frm u kept mi motivated..

  • the hug frm u kept mi warm with all ur care n concern..

  • the things u do touched mi thoroughly..

  • the sight of u all my tiredness..all my stress..all my sickness gone..u made mi feel that im the luckiest woman..

i cant imagine life w/o YOU..

but things seemed to have changed..not my lurve 4 u..not ur lurve 4 mi either..it's juz the amount of lurve , attention , care n concern n anithing n everithing i get frm YOU!

- i dunno how long can i still hang on..im falling......... -

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